barley kut teh

That moment in life when you realize too late that the pot you're using to make barley has flavored said barley with the aroma and a hint of that bak kut teh taste from the bkt that was previously cooked in it.  Despite being washed like four times after the bak kut teh was done. Despite passing a sniff test AND getting a rinse before the barley was put in.

barley kut teh. where it tastes like barley but every time I go in to take a sip, it smells like I should be getting bak kut teh instead.

it's weird, it's indescribable, and it's kinda blowing my mind but there are starving children in the world right? waste not, want not and all that jazz.

Somehow, barley kut teh accurately sums up the crazy that has been my life this January. Not quite going my way but not really all that bad either.

hmmmm.

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fragile yet volatile, it's sad when they don't last

Well, I'm glad your yelling at me and twisting things around makes you feel better.

How do I land these types of friends/housemates again? Living alone seems like a very good option right about now.

Won't lie. Part of me is sad but a larger part is apathetic. This friendship has kinda been over for a while...at least for me it has. I'm glad you feel better blaming it on me but to be honest, mine is the fourth friendship you've lost since you've been here. Some of it is my fault but there's a pattern and it's pretty telling. There's too much drama and not enough owning up to things. Empty apologies thrown out now in blanket form don't count when you don't even know what you're apologising for. Also, thank you for throwing what was a sincere offer back in my face. For someone who is so "self-reflective" and "communicative," you obviously need to work on it a lot more. However, that said, I wish you all the best and seriously, good luck in trying to get your life together.

Here's to what started off as a beautiful friendship and just completely fell apart. I haven't had many of these in my life but as always, lesson learned.

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NYE

I had wondered, briefly, why I don't remember how I had celebrated the last two NYEs in Hawaii. It came to me later - I was in the bay area both years. And it made me miss celebrating Christmas and NYE in SF. A lot.

Hawaii can be pretty awesome but their NYE celebrations were definitely lacking. In hind sight, Waiks would have been the best place to celebrate it. With my intense dislike of tourists, that should tell you something about self-titled "party of the year" that I ended up going to. lol.

What I spent my NYE doing - listening to bad music, tottering around a damp and slightly muddy park by the waterfront in heels (never again), long lines for overpriced drinks that were limited to one per person per purchase, a countdown that started at 25 secs instead of 10 secs til, highlights including a ferris wheel and a mechanical bull ride, and a fireworks display that was all boom but could have been prettier. All this while running around with a gimp on crutches and a bunch of frat aged guys who kept getting lost and picking up horribly slutty tourists (one of whom was pretty rude because she thought I was shouldering in on her hook up for the night. Lady, you're welcome to him). All in all, it was a dash of city and a whole lot of country, Hawaiian style....basically amounting to a fairly frustrating night. lol. There's no way to accurately describe it. You would have had to have been here to understand the overpriced oxymoron that is a NYE block party in Hawaii.

It brought me back to my undergrad days and I could not have wished any harder for a cheaper, more mellow start to the year surrounded by friends and family. It wasn't all bad; I got to know a couple of the guys better (before they got super wasted. lol), I had a chance to start my year off by doing something nice for a couple of strangers, and had closure on an issue or two that was plaguing me. Beyond that, it made me realize how much I miss my friends and family and renewed my resolve to get so face time in soon. My semi-shitty night also reminded me of how much I appreciate everything and everyone in my life and how much I don't like running around and partying like I'm 21 again. lol.

Next year, I will get to the bay area/spain or die trying. lol. As much as I love the rugby team and Hawaii, I can do without a repeat performance of NYE 2012. 

Happy New Year! Hope yours was a lot better than mine!

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