The height of insanity, how much further can he go?

This should have gone up last night but as luck would have it, by the time I finished writing it, the internet crapped out. The router is downstairs and there was no fucking way I was going down because I think there probably would have been a second confrontation with this asshole. But yeah, last night was shitty:

Right now, I have to write because otherwise, I think I might cry or puke. I'm so upset my stomach is roiling, my whole body is tense and angry tears are making it hard to see.

The whole cat face man situation is getting blown out of proportion and I have nothing to do with it other than being the one who is receiving the abuse. His accusations are baseless and the product of a seriously paranoid mind. I'm honestly starting to think that this guy is beyond cray-cray. Today was the last straw. To be called out of my room and verbally attacked like that is beyond reasonable. I didn't take it lying down and I'm proud to say that I didn't lose it entirely but it was definitely an effort to keep myself in check and take the high road. (which btw, the high road fucking sucks).

However, if cat face man wants a fight, then he'll get a fight. Fuck this shit. He wants passive-aggressive, I'll give him passive-aggressive. If he thinks he can yell at me and get away with it well, think again. Based on tonight, it's apparent that he can dish it out but can't take it. Which is absolutely pathetic. Especially since he's 40-50ish and acts like a petulant 5 year old. When someone half your age is more rational than you are, you're pretty much a loser at that point.

The fact that he tried to pull this shit with the landlord/manager there (who didn't do much) tells me that he's obsessed with whatever imagined slight he's taken personally and that the landlord isn't going to be much help on either side. If that's the case, then I don't think I have anything to lose in defending myself and I really don't have to be nice anymore. I've given him three free passes. That's more than fair. Honestly, I'd be a fucking idiot to give him anymore and if I do, I bloody well deserve it for being so stupid. But that's not gonna happen cos the next time he tries anything, I'm going to give as good as I get, if not better. And if they evict me because of him (low possibility but still a possibility?maybe?), I'll fucking sue their asses.

Frankly, it's on. I'm done playing nice. Cat face man can bring it.

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When someone's ocd sparks off ocd tendencies you've never had before

OMG THE CAT FACES ARE DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!!!!!

I AM SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY OVER ALL THIS LABELING AND CAT-FACING OF THINGS!

4 weeks into the semester and it's not my school work that is stressing me out. It is the fact that I have not been able to use the kitchen in three weeks to stress bake/cook. And when I have used it, he's been in there with his loud opera/chinese opera, encroaching on my kitchen destressing time, totally in the way and unwelcomed, CAT-FACING EVERY. EFFING. THING. MULTIPLE TIMES!!!

It's making me antsy, like there's an itch I just can't get to and I feel like I want to break something, anything, to get it to stop. I laugh over how ridiculous it is with my housemates and friends but his constant presence and ocd claiming of everything is making me extremely uncomfortable in my own house among other things. I actually like the place I'm living in right now and this new set of housemates are great (except for him) but I'm not sure if I'll be able to stay once he fully moves in which sucks because I was hoping to stay here for the next year or two at least.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

fact - the excessive cat-facing of stuff: it can drive you crazy.

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It's funny, the difference a few months can make.

Was supposed to complete that half finished draft about summer that is just sitting there but then I got caught up in reading all the drafts that I never posted (there are a surprising number of them) and most probably will not post, ever. Reading through them, they're probably my best writing pieces. As disjointed as some of them can be, they're highly personal, emotional and entirely un-PC. lol. It seems like I didn't blog all that much over summer but looking back, I've actually been very productive; especially since I think this past summer has been a tremendous growing experience for me and I'm more comfortable just being me. I know that sounds a little funny, particularly since I'm pretty damn old to be having epiphanies of self-awareness and all that mumbo jumbo but that's the best explanation I can come up with. I'm definitely a lot happier to be in Hawaii and more than a few people have noticed it. Which means.....lots of happy posts coming your way! yay!

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seriously, this is getting ridiculous. I might need to put out a missed connections ad on craigslist. lol.

updates on summer in cambodia and life back in hawaii are coming. i promise. it's just a little hectic right now (when isn't it?) but as soon as i sort most things out, i'll have stuff up :)

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Alive!...sort of...in Phnom Penh

Yeah, just a quick note to say I'm not lost in the jungle that is Phnom Penh. So, so much is going on, I can't even keep up with everything being thrown at me. I've had to move to a new place 2 days after getting into Phnom Penh. Language classes are going at a fairly fast pace. The field trips in the afternoon and on Saturdays are interesting but so very exhausting (having to wake up at 6.30am everyday and having late nights does not help). Food poisoning is the bane of my life right now (i got like  an hour and a half of sleep last night, I was so busy running between the bed and the toilet) and to add to that, boy problems I didn't want to deal with but kinda expected have popped up. Otherwise, having an absolute blast here! :D I'm living with two Brits so my accent/English has kinda shifted to mimic them. lol. It's actually kinda funny. But we've got a great group of people, both in the CKS and ASK programs and it's shaping up to be an awesome, awesome summer!!! Or at least it will be once my stomach decides to stop rebelling and my lifelong random/dirty-food/things-in-my-mouth training kicks in. I'll update more once things have settled down and I feel better.

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why does grad school feel like grade school sometimes?

lol. just got my co-editorial position revoked in a random apologetic and rambly (is that a word?) email. i know I should probably be pissed but personally, I think it's hilarious and I don't mind at all. Fact is, I never did anything at all....mostly because the main guy in charge who elected me into that position (notice I didn't actually volunteer for it) didn't delegate. And now he thinks it wouldn't be fair to the others to allow me to be credited as such. But I will be credited accordingly for the work I did do. lol. dude, seriously? I'm not gonna be butt hurt about it so quit with the lame apologetic email. Sometimes I feel like I'm in grade school and not grad school; gotta be oh so careful about other people's feelings and egos so as to not stunt their development and all that crap. Honestly, I'd prefer not to be credited at all. I don't want to be mean or anything but I was talking with one or two of the other staff editors and we all agree that we are slightly ashamed to be connected with this years publication in the first place because the editing jobs were horrible (seriously, you couldn't tell that some of them had been edited several times or at all during the final edits!) and I thought a lot of the topics were kinda lame and not very well written and we didn't weed them out enough (accepting more mediocre papers because it's an online publication  and it'll help these students get published doesn't justify lowering standards). But that's just me. lol. Frankly, at this point, apart from my grades, I really don't care about anything school related anymore.

2 more days till I'm done and 3 more days till I'm back in the Bay! As much as I've come to like Hawaii this semester, I'll be glad for some time in the bay with friends and family.

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halfway there :)

Almost done. There past few days have seriously sucked. All because I procrastinated like mad. I need to learn how to be on top of things because writing papers at 4 am the day they are due is not as fun as it would seem.

Anyway, totally random but I totally found and picked up and am now eating TWO green mangoes that I found on the road by my neighbour's house. I've been eyeing his mango tree even since I discovered it was a mango tree a few weeks ago. And now, SUCCESS!!!! Green mango rojak!! (cos really, who needs the other fruit to enjoy rojak?) lol

Which brings me to my habit of trying to eat stuff off of trees. Have I mentioned how it makes me totally happy to find something edible on a tree or plant and eat it?? lol. I guess Queena was right in calling me a monkey. I'm gonna have to redouble my efforts in staking out edible things in my neighbourhood/on campus. because I can. and it'll make me happy without resorting to drugs or alcohol. Anyway, this week has sucked so far but finding free green mangoes is awesome so it's all good. :D It really is the little things in life....

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seriously, wtf??!? What is with the end of the world type natural disasters?

So the power cut off around 5 ish and didn't come back on until like 8pm. Not too bad but it's the first time something like this has happened and we didn't know how long it would last.

Of course it had to happen when I have a final and powerpoint presentation due.

And of course, it had to happen just before dinner. Because if cooking wasn't already fun, try doing in the dark is even better. For some reason, it's kinda hard to tell if water is boiling in the dark, especially when it's storming. I'm super thankful for the fact that the stove is gas. Otherwise, I'd starve. for realz. 'Cause I haven't been grocery shopping in close to 3 weeks and all I have is canned or dried stuff. I think it is safe to say that my tendency to stock up on food has saved me from starvation many, many times. Too bad none of it can be eaten as is. Hence the cooking in the dark.

Anyway, power came back on and that was awesome. I went online to check what was up with the screwy electricity. Turns out it was only just a LIGHTNING STORM/TORNADO/WATERSPOUT thingy...no big deal, whatev.........

No seriously, WHAT??

First a tsunami (and while Honolulu wasn't hit badly, a couple houses and cars got washed into the sea on some of the other islands. seriously, sucks for them. how do you recoup your stuff/mortgage/losses when your beach front property is under water/bobbing along in the ocean?) and now a couple of waterspouts/tornados??!?

WTF. It's like, welcome to paradise! Here, have a little sun, sand, TASTE OF THE APOCALYPSE, waves, hula, island music. Aloha and Mahalo. Hope you enjoyed your stay!

Come on Hawaii, the world can end after I'm done with finals. Gimme three days and I won't mind sirens, natural disasters and blackouts. Promise.

Have to admit tho, the pictures are kinda pretty, slightly breathtaking. I can understand why some people chase storms. Here's what some friends took with their iphones from their dorm/on the street. And the bigger ones are what I got off the net.

        

 

Apparently this is a lightning storm over Kailua

This is Waikiki

 

Waikiki and downtown Honolulu

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like a goldfish...

Seriously, shortest attention span ever.

I've got 3 25 pg papers, 2 powerpoint presentations, a final and a ton of Khmer homework to catch up on ....all due within the next 6 days!!

Why was I stalking my new celeb crush last week instead of doing work??? Aahhhh.

Luckily, this insanity has only lasted for a week....I'm kinda over it now. Which is insane because seriously? GOLDFISH. and really, it's not all that different from my attention span regarding boys. lol. that says a lot about my dating life, doesn't it? Aside from my inability to keep an interest in the guys around me, the last week's been a bit nostalgic. I think the last time I had a celeb crush was in high school. aah, those were the days.....urm. yeah.

So really, what has this experience taught me?
a) I'm super shallow. lol. As attractive as someone's talent is, it's all about the looks. haha :p and yeah, it's really really hard to fangirl over someone who's physical attributes you can kinda admire but you're not really attracted to.
b) The fangirls/fanboys of today are very, very, very, very hardcore (especially in the tween age range. They are Crazy MoFos and are obsessive as heck!)  Meep. It scares me. Someone please tell me I was never as obsessive as that. If I were their parents, I'd invest in some very expensive, very intensive therapy asap. Hmm, makes me wonder about the numbers of psychos out there who start out as obsessive fans....or maybe I watch too many crime series...
c) I discovered twitter AND tumbler. At the same time. I still don't really know how it all works but it also freaks me out. I'm technologically challenged and in some ways I'm glad for it because my foray into the madness that is twitter AND tumbler (tumbler in particular) has shown me that technology has made it ridiculously easy to stalk someone (not that I didn't realize this before....I just didn't realize how hardcore it was) 

Lol. And that ladies and gentlemen, was my daily musing on life/ random rant/words 'o wisdom/word vomit/i need to sleep to make sense moment because I'm procrastinating over trying to write a paper...one more weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek and it'll be over!! yay!

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youtube + emails = introspective?

I've been spending a lot of time on youtube. There are a lot of ridiculous people out there just waiting to entertain me with their random talents and antics :D It kinda makes me think about my own talents and antics.... like being able to sort rocks in a short amount of time....and (totally unrelated), throwing them at ppl....urm, yeah.  Just got an email from my advisor listing the new students coming in under her with a message to contact them and welcome them. I'm all for it. I love showing people around and helping them get adjusted. Seriously, just give me a soapbox right now; I'd happily prattle for hours. If this academic gig ever bombed, I'd be great supervising refugee camps or integrating new immigrants or something. lol. I'm actually really excited about the coming year and I know I'm going to be exploring the island a lot more since my roomie from last year's excavation at Angkor is going to be here for a year on the Luce program. Mita is awesome and we're totally gonna have a blast.

But, this message kinda twinges. It's one of those times when some of that low self-esteem left over from my middle/high school days rears its ugly head. I think about how the past and future students coming into the program all received/will receive such a welcome or something like it and wonder why I didn't qualify for one. I'm doing great in the here and now and life has always had a way of falling into place exceptionally well for me but sometimes it's the little things that make me wonder why I keep getting left behind every so often; why I seem to lose out on certain aspects of life that I never realize I'm missing out on until after the fact. It's a little funny and I'm positive a large part of it is just me being oblivious but it does make me wonder. I'm sure it happens to all of us at some point but it doesn't stop me from feeling sad for a little bit. It does however, make me count my blessings and be thankful for everything in life, every person I've met and every experience - good and bad. It reminds me to get off my butt and appreciate living life; to try and live it to the fullest extent.

Lol. there's my little introspective spiel on easter sunday.  Happy Easter guys!

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so totally not cool

Got woken up to the sounds of a hammer banging away and rapid fire Czech at like 7am. Okay. Whatever. Halfway through my shower I spied someone on the roof right outside the kitchen/bathroom window through the shower curtains. Apparently hyena girl's boyfriend was installing a mini air-cond in her room window (which is far enough away that he shouldn't have appeared in the bathroom window in the first place). I don't care if he was looking through the window or not. It is not okay to be hanging around a window when you know someone is showering! I don't care if you're about to fall off the roof! It would serve you right! Also, aren't you supposed to get permission before doing something like installing an aircond?!?

So, today started off with what was probably unintentional peeping (still doesn't make it right), hammering, sawing and about an hour ++ of listening to someone complain and whine in a foreign language. I totally want to punch both of them. repeatedly. in the nuts.

Why would you do this to me on my day off?? Whyyyyy??

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crunch time

Hmm, youtube is ruining my life! I can't help but watch random things instead of doing work that really, really needs to be done. I've got zero will power :/

Went for the Cambodian New Year celebrations this weekend when I should have been hard at work. Eh, oh well. It was good. Had some awesome food, saw some traditional performances and got to get to know some ppl a little better. The dances were alright but I have to admit, I'm not a big fan of Cambodian social dancing.... I dunno, the moves and music throw me off and I end up looking like a huge dork, well, a bigger dork than usual, on the dance floor. Not to mention my tendency to trip over little old Cambodian ladies who are gracefully getting their groove on. lol. I'm a right disaster on any Cambodian dance floor.

I can't believe how fast this sem has flown past. I've got less than a month to catch up on homework I've fallen terribly behind on, write my papers and take my exams. Then it's a whirlwind of packing up, flights and too short stays in some of my fav cities seeing some of my fav people. And Hugh Jackman. Yup, Charl n I have a sister's day out in SF planned and Hugh Jackman singing broadway is the perfect way to end the night :) I'm psyched to catch up with people in SF and KL and see + make new friends in Phnom Penh. I've never been but I've been promised a good time and great hidden food places :D It's Cambodia round two: The Phnom Penh edition and I'm hoping to be more on top of updates (meaning I'll finish the Siem Reap series after school is done...only like a year late, whatev :p) while traipsing all over the world. We'll see.

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yay....err, not quite...

Just got a small grant. Yay.

I think I might have to give it back because of the FLAS. Boo.

It's like telling someone Santa isn't real on Christmas day.

It makes me sad. Seriously, if I earned it, why can't I keep it? Some merit award this is.

Bah humbug.

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AAAHHHHH!!!! I GOT IT!!!

OMG!

I got both the summer 2011 AND the 2011-2012 academic FLAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAHAHHHHHHHHH!!!!

This is AWESOME!!

I'm FULLY FUNDED for the next year starting this summer!

OMG. I totally need background music for how awesome life is right now! Seriously. Coincidentally, I've got Parisan fruit tarts and cheeseballs in the works right now. Gimme 20 mins and I'll be stuffing my face in JUBILATION! :D

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *runs around squealing in joy and flapping arms*

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Life is awesome when real peopleand activities are involved :D

School's been going well and Spring Break was a glorious week of doing absolutely nothing. Kinda like a normal week except I got to sleep in until  9am or 10am! I'm not sure what it is but there's something about Hawaii (or my schedule) where sleeping in until 8am is as good as it gets. Meh.

Anyway, I'm enjoying this semester (as packed as it is) a lot. I think it might have to do with my extracurriculars and finally socializing. This human interaction thing is great!

I really like my sewing class. Lol. I feel like an old grandma for saying that but it's pretty awesome to make something :) I'm almost done with the skirt I'm making. I might put up a pic if it turns out alright. The funny thing is, I was skyping Charl (first time in 3 yrs!) and when I showed her the material she totally called me out on the fact that my almost finished skirt....... is remarkably similar to my sheet set from Ikea that's on her bed. Urm. Coincidence? Lol. I swear it is! The fabric just happened to be the best looking one on sale so I got it. But it's a little depressing that my skirt could have had a separate life as a set of drapes or sheets. But hey, that's the fashion trend these days :)

The real saving grace, however, is the dance class I'm taking. Actually, I'm taking two. Lindy Hop is great and I'm impressed by how many guys can dance decently at the mixer after class (although partner dancing is, for me, a fairly awkward/uncomfortable thing to do and I'm slowly learning to get comfortable with it) but my true passion apparently lies with Pole Dancing.....for fitness.

Yup. That's right. Who would have thought that I'd find my calling in Pole Dance? Not me, for sure. The dancing thing takes a little effort but I totally rock the pole stuff though. =D I love the girls in my classes, the workout (esp core) is kickass AND fun, and I have to fight the urge to swing around every pole I see nowadays. Stop sign poles and the poles on buses/trains are especially tempting since they're about the right size. Lol. Seriously, if that's not love/passion, I don't know what is.

Most of my friends here who know are amused (or I guess bemused? if they don't know me so well) but whatever. So far, the common reaction is to ask if I'm preparing for an alternative career if this grad school thing doesn't work out. Personally, I think it's hilarious. And it's probably the best back up plan I could have in the case of a tanking academic career. Seriously. Those girls in Vegas totally have like two houses, a fleet of cars and all their loans paid off in a few years. I'm totally set if I have to do this school thing sans scholarship! (although, the scholarship would prolly be the better option than dancing in Sin City so y'all betta keep those fingers and toes crossed for me to get the academic FLAS). Hmm, on second thought, those girls have to strip too (we don't...if we don't want too. it is a fitness class after all)......I dunno....my dignity vs. being set for life......sigh, I suppose dignity wins hands down since I can always  fall back on the time honored tradition of marrying rich. lol.

So yeah, dancing with a pole :D and I guess my new (belated) addiction to Glee have gotten me into a rather upbeat mood these last few weeks. Life is awesome!

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sun, sand and surf...... it must be SPRING BREAK!!

Hana'uma Bay

Spring break is finally here! And it's really gotten off to a good start :D

I received a preliminary notice that says I'm very likely to get that scholarship for my summer intensive language program (although I've never had a preliminary notice given before. It's like a weird limbo; did I get it or not? This maybe, possibly, perhaps thing is really messing with me) AND I've been shortlisted for the academic year scholarship!! I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that announcing it here won't jinx it. Y'all betta cross yo fingers (and toes!) too cos this scholarship means $30k that'll cover my fees and living costs! I also got an acceptance letter for concurrent enrollment in a historic preservation certificate program through the Department of American Studies :) To top it all off, I finally made it out of Honolulu for a great day of hiking and snorkeling at the beach. The weeks leading up to spring break were kinda stressful since midterms and papers and proposals were due so it was really nice to unwind. Now THIS is the real Hawaiian paradise everyone keeps dreaming of, not that horribly crowded touristy crap at Waikiki.

The eastern-most point of O'ahu

Windward side of O'ahu

 With jenny and Josie on the Makapu'u trail. We saw 5 whales swim by!!

The lighthouse has the largest lens in all of America.....I think...

Is it sad that I've been here almost 7 months now and this is the second time I've hit the beach and the first time I've had to break out the bathing suit/actually get into the water? I obviously need to appreciate paradise more.

Great snorkeling at Hana'uma Bay

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the things i do for family....

 A couple weeks late, and somewhat bad timing (midterms anyone??) but Happy Belated CNY guys!!

It took HOURS, a crap load of butter (like a lot), baking late into the night (seriously, my housemates thought I was crazy) and sweatshop-like conditions (you have not seen my kitchen) = 200++ pineapple tarts. Did I mention I made two different types of tarts?? I had to sacrifice precious homework time (okay lah, in my schedule it's homework time, in reality it's surfing the web aimlessly time) so Charlynne, you betta appreciate this!!! If you ever wanted to know what a labor of love looked like, this is it! Pineapple tarts!

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ohhhhhh KARMA!

Man, this week has been pretty malang (in the broadest sense of the word) for me and some of my highschool friends. This bad luck we attribute to karma for making fun of certain people continuously. (It's prolly not karma at all but we like to have a scapegoat for our chronic unluckiness in life and love. We're trying to rehabilitate ourselves and be better people (I swear!!) but we can't help it when they make it soooooo easy. It's an issue of will power - we just don't have enough and can't resist.

Anyway, the karma manifests in different ways for us - some hilarious, some oddly painful and some, downright depressing. lol. It's gotten to be an ongoing phenomena that messes with our lives so much that we've started keeping a weekly score. Whomever "suffers" the worst karma "wins." I think this week's collective total is:

Jon managed to sustain an injury a day. No seriously, he got hurt at least once a day....which is kinda funny cos he's such a wuss about it.

Timun got an infection (I have no idea where and I don't really want to know) and had to work overtime then had to go for some company treasure hunt at 6am in the morning. I'll throw in her working CNY too just cos that kind of suckyness carries over.

Our resident KPC (kay po/ busybody) experienced an allergic reaction after eating expired (!!) abalone. (Seriously, wtf expired abalone?!?!)  Then she caught a cold and fever.

I grated my knuckle (yes, just one) while making lemon cream then proceeded to slice that same finger on the lid of a can while making hummus. Both were bleeders that did not help my culinary endeavors meaning that it took me twice as long to make food and i had to starve for like 3 hours longer than I should have.Then today, I get a creepy fb message from a fairly creepy highschool acquaintance I just added (only cos my other highschool friends added him. shit. should have just left him hanging with the rest of the creepers on the friend request page. and no, that's not mean at all. if they're still in limbo, they can't re-request after you ignore the first one. hah! take that facebook!).

That totally fulfilled the weekly quota of "random creepy message/friending from random creepy guy." Yeah, I have a weekly quota. Because apparently, the only guys who are ballsy enough to inquire about my availability are the ones nobody wants! wtf. seriously, fml. i need to work on this single thing. Especially since I have managed to fall down that magical rabbit hole to end up in a state where it seems like wearing a shirt is optional and people like to randomly strip. In fact, I'm pretty sure you can judge the distance to the beach (or if you're on the right bus heading to the beach) by how much (or little) people are wearing.

Anyway, if I manage to contract tetanus then I win hands down because that would be pretty tragic. If not, then I think KPC deserves to win this week's round cos seriously, EXPIRED ABALONE. 'Nuff said.

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Just keep nodding, maybe they'll go away...

If I'm getting loads of unsolicited advice, does it mean I'm finally making friends amongst the seniors in the department?? I dunno if that's a good thing or not. lol. I guess it's more amusing than not.

I just had like three people tell me that I'm doing too much and that I should cut back. And all I really told them was how many classes I'm taking. They tell me I need to drop something but really, I'm five weeks into the semester and I don't think that it's an option. The only reason I'm taking the extra classes in the first place is cos the professors aren't gonna teach them again any time soon or at all. Do I really need the two extra classes? No. Will they be super useful for what I do? Hell yeah. So that's that. It's nice that they care but I wish they'd do it in less of a holier-than-thou way. Yeah, they're seniors in the department and they mean well but when they hand out the advice, some of them tend to make me feel like I'm that one special kid who eats paste and boogers in the back of the class and they need to edumacate me cos they know it's going to melt my brain or something. One of them was like "if your advisor were here she wouldn't let you do this". lol. What are we? 5? Seriously, I'm taking extra classes, not doing crack and smoking joints. I'm aware of my limits and I may be pushing them but then again I've done worse and I'll (theoretically) have a summer to recover.

Yeah, i guess my body is hinting at stress (carb and salt cravings!! although, that could totally mean something else...like a rare and tragic disease or whatever. eh.) but honestly, apart from the perpetual tiredness and bloody early starts, it feels great to be busy and doing things :)

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cravings

normally, cravings = pregnant......yeah, not happening any time soon.

according to google (yea, i googled it), carb and salt cravings = stress and exhaustion. who knew??


btw, Happy CNY!!! i was too tired/didn't have time to bake any CNY goodies in time for CNY but I'm determined to have my pineapple tarts and cornflake cookies soon. like this week. even if it means blowing off the 103 (yes, 103!! O.o) readings i've fallen behind on reading. that sense of accomplishment i felt for buying all the damn books and downloading/printing all the readings apparently doesn't extend to actually doing them. lol. it seems my slacker ways are still going strong. dang.

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success! fridge space, come back to mama!!

how sad is it that my fridge space is a priority in my life?? (over school work and a social life......)

how much sadder is it that it took me a week and a half to get it back??

hahaha

honestly though, i had like 3 or 4 passive aggressive ideas right off the bat (useful but not a long term solution).....it was the plotting of the "accidental non-confrontational confrontation" and trying to catch my housemate when she was home that took so long. why do i make my life a gazillion times harder than it actually is??

classes are taking off; i'm actually going to spring for ALL my books tomorrow (yes, all of them)....I think this is the first time in my college career I've ever bought all the books for every class I'm taking. I feel absurdly proud of myself for being so responsible.....haha... if buying them a week and a half into the sem (after faking my first assignments) is responsible. Maybe a better word is accomplished. I'm not sure why I'm bragging about feeling accomplished when I haven't bought them yet.....perhaps it's so I don't start crying over how insanely expensive they are when I actually have to pay...

bioarch: $130+$30+$22; historic preservation: $50+$30+$35+$42; cambodian: $50; etc, etc, etc

feeling like a good student: priceless

lol

maybe my "studious asian" gene is kicking in? I really hope it is. I think I might need it.

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this one's ticking me off

So that new housemate, you know, the one I've had something to complain about pretty much every day since I got back from winter break? Yeah well....apparently, annoying the crap out of me with painfully weird courtship behavior on the front porch and her creepy/evil laugh and by co-opting various bits of my personal crockery (and having the cheek to not allow me the chance to steal it back) isn't enough. I just found out that she's co-opted my fridge space as well! Bugger. I hate having to figure out how to smack someone down in an unassuming way so that the natural order of the house (in my mind at least) is restored without any hurt feelings. How do you (nicely) tell someone that "yes, I've finally figured out that you've been using my fridge space for the last three weeks while I've been gone and yes, it's nice and clean and organized because I make a point to keep it that way so take your stuff and take a hike cos I want my space back. And by the way, clean up the mess you've made of my formerly pristine fridge!" ?? Lol. OCD much? Gah! I hate any type of real confrontation (cos the imagined confrontation scenarios in my mind are always way more awesome :D ) but I think being all passive aggressive about this is not going to work :/ boo. This is gonna take some brain power. meh.

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oh god.

hysterical housemate and creepy laughing housemate are apparently one and the same.

and she's flirting and laughing outside my window right now. 

why?? whyyyyy??

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be careful what you ask for

So, I wanted something to keep me busy this semester and man, I shouldn't have even thought about it.

If last semester was a breeze where I lazed around and baked/went grocery shopping a lot (A LOT. seriously), I'm now....

Overcommitted

OMG. How the heck did that happen??

My little plan for 3 classes, a dance class/hobby and an internship has become 5 classes, an internship, a part-time job, 3 extracurriculars and a editorial position I forgot I had. oops. (maybe, just maybe, I might have been a little excited about the new year and new start (read: gone a little overboard with the whole "my life is stagnant and I should grab life by the balls" resolution thingy)

Also, I apparently have to hang out at my newly given office (yay office space!!) at least 10 hours a week in order to keep it (boo. can you tell i like the idea of it more than actually having it??)......I dunno if it's worth it.....it's got four people squished in, looks like a harem decided to throw up on the walls (to complement the 50s decor, of course) and kinda smells like an ashram. lol. On the other hand, it may come in handy since I've now got 9 (yes, NINE) housemates and I foresee a lack of peace and quiet. Why? Nothing super big or anything (apart from having 10 girls in one tiny house) but the two new girls on my floor are pretty noisy: one of them likes to have very long, very loud eastern european hysterics on the phone (I could hear her from outside the house) and another likes to giggle in that high-pitched-haunted-house/chucky kinda way. Seriously gives me the heebie jeebies.... especially when she laughs at night.... I've never been more thankful for the annoying streetlights and the lack of curtains if it means my room isn't pitch black when she randomly laughs. lol. it's funny and creepy at the same time.

Well, this semester is shaping up to be a super busy one (can't believe I'm only two days in and already dreading how stressed out I'll be) but I think it'll be fun.Wish me luck!

p.s: I still owe the last two weeks of Cambodia and the highlights of life in the aloha state. I promise they will come. soon. with pictures even.

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Second time around

5+ hour flight, 2+ hours in 3 different buses and I'm "home."

Aloha Hawaii, we meet again. Let's try this once more. I promise not to be a surly Hawaii-hatin' douche this time around.

Flight was infinitely better this time - I wasn't freezing and the 7 screaming babies from the last flight were not there. Awesome. I did disembark with the mother of all migraines but I figured it was dehydration and hunger. Managed to provide entertainment for my section of the plane when I played musical overhead compartments as I tried to find space for my luggage. One nice old man was kind enough to point out an empty space in one of the closed compartments. Why the heck do people close the damn things if they are not full?!? Idiots. Also, the entire Boise State basketball team was right there..... watching my little asian self struggle to put heavy bags overhead. Okay, I'm not that short but I still have to lift my admittedly heavy luggage over my head and these guys are all like 6 ft ++.....a little help would have been great. I hope UH beats your asses in today's game. lol.

Also, why is it that the 11 min car ride to my place is a 2 hour bus ride with at least 2 transfers? I'm already missing having a car.

Best part of the day? Getting to my place and realizing that my landlords had found another tenant for the house. On my floor. And as RA, I had to spend the rest of the day dealing with it. Apparently they cleared the storage room out and are going to rent it to these two little asian kids from Macau. What this means is that I have to share the bathroom/kitchenette with 5 other people GIRLS now. I guess that means I'm going to be showering a lot less now or at ridiculous times of the day. Ugh. I kinda really like my showers. A lot. oh well. At least these girls are nice.

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