when habits subtly sneak up on me...

Okay, I've randomly just realized that I've developed a pottymouth. I mean, I guess I've known for a while but I hadn't realized how bad (in my opinion) I've gotten. I'm not entirely bad to the point of cussing like a sailor but I've noticed that I use expletives a lot in everyday conversations and I usually only realize I've used them after they've rolled off my tongue so effortlessly and I mentally cringe at having cussed without reason.

It's a little ironic.

I've always been fairly proper and very conscious about these things and very disproving (I like to do the passive-aggressive glare thing) when pottymouths were in my vicinity or around kids. Heck, I didn't learn the F-bomb until I was 15 or 16! And now, I'm dropping them in everyday conversations like they're going out of style. It's not attractive.

It used to be that I was this polite little asian kid but now, it's like the filter between my mouth and brain have developed some great big holes. It's probably cos there aren't any little old asian ladies who will randomly scold people for using crass language since everyone cusses here anyway. lol. I've only developed it in the last few years and it really isn't all that bad (I suppose it can be considered mild) but it is driving the prim and proper miss in me suitably crazy for having developed the habit in the first place. Oh man, I'm gonna have to relearn the finer points of self censorship and consciously practice it like crazy or something.

I do have to wonder where I picked it up from (Marin? College? Europe? TV?). New mid-year resolution: stop cussing so much!!